Long time no talk!

I really try to keep it as positive as possible on this blog, but I’m just in a ranting mood.  I am kind of dealing with a lot of anxiety right now.  My friendships are becoming overly complicated, school is totally sucky and I honestly have no idea but I want to do with my life.  Two weeks ago I decided to quit dancing.  It was honestly the hardest thing I have ever done.  After a endless amount of tears, I am now trying to finally accept the fact that I made the right decision.  It was just so hard to quit something that I loved, but I know that my current love for yoga was more real and important (I am just re-reading this now and it literally sounds like Romeo and Juliet).  I just couldn’t handle the pressure of dancing- my teachers constantly told us that we weren’t good enough, that we were not good enough to compete.  After a while, all the negativity really started to get to me and I started to believe that it was the truth.  But it wasn’t.  Never let people tell you that your not good enough, because you are.  Everyone is good enough, actually we are all better then good. A huge kiddos to all those dedicated, hard-working dancers out there, you keep pursuing your passion and train hard (and don’t listen to everything that your teachers say, you all amazing, unique dancers no matter if you can do a perfect fouetté turn or not).

My friendships are now becoming so complicated, I feel as though my head is constantly spinning.  Trying to balance my new friends with my old friends is REALLY hard.  I feel that some of my older friends and I have just drifted apart, so now it’s really awkward to hang out with them.  It’s not that I don’t like them anymore but we just don’t connect or have really anything in common, I don’t really know why we even became friends in the first place.  My new friends are wonderful, but it’s hard to get used to a group of brand new humans.  There is this one girl who is kind of in our squad but kind of not and for some reason, she seems to hate me.  I was never, ever mean to her but she probably feels as though I am replacing her (which I am NOT).  But I know that I can’t let her get in the way of my amazing new group of friends who treat me like family.

And then there’s school.  It’s not that I have this deep hatred of school in general, I just very strongly dislike my freaking french teacher.  He literally make my want to stick paper clips into my eyeballs.  He is not even qualified to teach french!  Anyways, I don’t want to write too much about him because if I start ranting about him, I will never stop.  Everything else about school is pretty great.  I am now finally starting to warm up to my drama class, which makes class a lot more enjoyable and gym is pretty fun!

I am also really craving an adventure.  I want to just hop onto a flight and just go somewhere different (preferably Europe) and not come back until I have figured out what I want to do with the next four years of my life.  Do I want to still dance? Pursue yoga as more then just a hobby?  Train to get involved in cross-country running?  I have so many choices to make and not enough time.

Thank you very much for letting me rant, I feel a lot better.  Here are some words of wisdom.

Love,

Em   

Recently I have been making these muffins EVERY SINGLE WEEK, they are just that good.  The best part, they are HEALTHY!  I am aware that they have chocolate chips in them but the other healthy ingredients balance it out, and if you want you could also make them without the chocolate (but come on now, who doesn’t love chocolate!)  By the way, this is not my recipe, full credit does out to Food Network!

What I like to do is substitute the oat bran for quick oats and the flax seed for chia seeds, but it tastes great both ways!

Well, thats all I have for you today, Happy Baking!

Love,

Em

Over the past year I have started to practice yoga.  Yoga has made me happier and relieved stress from my busy life.  I try to take yoga as much as I humanly can but things, such as school restrict that.  My solution to that is taking yoga before school!  Yes, that’s right, I voluntarily get up at 6am to go to yoga.  But I just love it so much that I don’t mind doing this.  My new goal is to get my yoga teacher training certificate before I’m 16.  This a very extravagant goal but I feel as though with much hard work I will accomplish it.

Also, in July, I started to run.  Before then I could not run 400 meters without stopping.  It’s that I was not physically fit, I was, but just in a different way.  Unfortunately being able to hold your leg up high in the air doesn’t make you a great runner.  I had terrible perseverance.  I remember the first time I went for a run I was so proud of myself for running 1km and only stopping 4 times!  Now after 3 months of training and over 250km later, I can run 5km without stopping in 25 minutes.  I am truly so very proud that I can do this because I never thought that I would be able too.  

But one downside to all of this is that running makes you a worse dancer.  As some of you may know, I’m a competitive dancer.  As a dancer we all strive to have all of our splits and be overly flexibility, but now I actually can’t become more flexible, I have reached my maximum.  This is because running, as much as I do has really tightened my hamstrings which doesn’t allow you to be flexible.

So what I am trying to say in this very rambly post, everything is good in moderation, but if you really want something you have to put your heart and soul into it.  Now don’t get me wrong, running, yoga, and dance have all put me in incredible shape (I even have an actual 6 pack) but you have to make sure you don’t over do it.  If I had know that running does this to your hamstrings I probably wouldn’t have pushed myself so hard when I was training.  But whats done is done and now I just want to inform my lovely readers about my experiences with different physical activities.

Thank you very much for reading and have an amazing day!  My challenge for you is to try yoga or go for a quick run today, your body will thank you in the future ;)

Love,

Em

I created My Tumblr Life for a few reasons.  1.  I want to write about topics that are relatable and useful to others.  I also want to inspire my readers to be the best version of themselves. (wOw that last thing I said was deep, deeper than the ocean)  2.  I find that writing relieves stress, so really I’m also writing for my own benefits.(because you know high school is the queen of stress) 3.  I want to try something new and see if I really could be a blogger.

So sit back, grab yourself a warm drink, (but place the drink a fair distance away from the computer to prevent spillage) and enjoy My Tumblr Life!

Love,

Em